Just another day...

Not a whole lot has been happening since I posted last. I hope everyone had a good Holiday Weekend. Mine was kinda boring.

Tommy was with his grandma and Lexie stayed at her dads. I went to my friend Jason's house and went into his huge yard with Jersey (his dog) and him. We could see fireworks from all sides! Jersey was TERRIFIED of the fireworks.

Took Tommy to the Dr. last night. He pulled hangnail sometime last week and when he got home from his Grandma Lena's house his thumb was majorly swollen and was green! YUCK! They had to use a needle to drain it and we are keeping antibiotic ointment and Band-Aids on it. He is packing a suitcase tomorrow and going to his Grandma Lena's tomorrow night. They are leaving Thursday morning to go to Michigan. They will be gone until Tuesday or Wednesday of next week. Going to be a nice little "mini vacation" for Mom! LOL I will miss him like crazy like I do every year they go up to visit family but I know he will be up there with Uncle Perry (one of his FAVORITE uncles) out on the boat and in the pool, and just enjoying every minute. He looks forward to summer break ALL school year long. Just glad it's something his Grandma Lena has kept up since Papaw passed away.

His behavior is getting A LOT better! I think we FINALLY got the dosage of his meds figured out. At least until he outgrows these levels and has to be increased again. He's so much more loving and calm. He loves hugging and kissing right now, and I love every minute of it. He's going to be 12 on the 30th of this month and I just know the loving, caring, hugging, kissing little boy that I have now is not going to be that way forever. I keep telling him he's going to outgrow it and he says he's not. Oh yeah, he STILL tries to sit in my lap and he's nearly 100 lbs!!! He's not much shorter than my Mom, and he's catching up to me pretty quick! Anyone have any boys clothes they want to Donate? LMAO! I can't keep up with this child!

Little Miss LexieBug is at her Dads. Haven't seen her in about 1 1/2 weeks and it just absolutely tears my heart out. I should be the one with her EVERY DAY! NOT her Step-Mom! How fair is this? Just because he is married and owns his house he's a better parent than I am? He thinks MY daughter is better off with ANOTHER woman raising her? Yeah I still get to see her but he does NOT involve me in her life. I have her schools web page and I check it frequently when it's the school year so I can make sure I go to everything that I should be going to! She keeps telling me she wants to come back and live with me. I just have to tell her that's not possible right now. I wish I had the money to afford a lawyer to fight for her! He has money and knows that I do not. He uses it against me all the time! Ok well enough on that subject for one night. Even though I don't get to see Lexie as much as I would like I still get to talk to her.

I started seeing a therapist today. 1st visit -- can't really say how it's going to go yet. We did get into a few things. She didn't have any open appoitments until August but she got me in @ 5 pm next week! LOL I'm glad I started going. Maybe with the right meds, and therapy, I can FINALLY come out of this depression I've been in. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, and I'm tired of it. I'm ready to be happy with myself, and everything around me. I'm tired of being so miserable for NO reason! Things will get better. I have faith in myself. I have a few things I'm working on to get myself out of this funk I'm in. Waiting on a package from Ivy Tech State College. I want to go back to school for nursing. I know it's going to be hard, but I have put myself through school once, and by God, I'm going to do it again! If I can do it with 2 toddlers, then I can do it with a 6th and 4th grader!


Well that's my update for now. Will try to write more later!

Hope all is well with everyone else :)